Wednesday, June 30, 2004

First day of work went fine , it seems a nice place to work. I quite enjoyed it really. On a late shift today so I finish at 8:30 tonight that will be different , not worked that late for years LOL. Ironing calls , so better get on with the household tasks. I am happy , and have all the Love I need. Reality is cool , creation is cool and opportunities are for the taking. Stay positive.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Start my new job today. Looking forward to it , it's going to be an awesome day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOON I LOVE YOU.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

I got the job , how cool is that. Have an induction day tomorrow , its part time which is I think a good thing right now. I believe it was just my positive attitude that made all the difference in me getting the job. Off for dinner at a friends today and its gonna be a great day as indeed every day is great. Be happy.

Friday, June 25, 2004

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End of advert.

Interview done and I am very pleased with the way it went (no well's in there). I will hear back from them by next Tuesday at the latest. The lady who interviewed me said how refreshing it was to see some one with a positive attitude , cool huh! Right things to do , be happy. Be back soon.

Second interview today , I,m looking forward to it because it will go great. I love the new me , as I love everything. I am finding it harder and harder to feel negative about so much , turning every thing into a positive experience , even being kicked out of the online community I belonged too. I am happy and will always be happy , I am never going back to how I was. Sunshine outside another wondrous day to step out into , WOW.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Had a phone call just now from the place I had the interview this morning and I have made it to the second interview stage , I knew it went well. I will do well friday as well.

Had the job interview , it went well , I did my best so am very happy.
God this is wonderful ,and I love it!

Another fantastic day. What a nice surprise to find a really nice message in my guest book today , thank you.
I have a job interview this morning which will go well , I know it will it can go no other way.

Monday, June 21, 2004

Another great day begins , I am so happy. The past few days I have been playing board games , what fun , Cludo,scrabble,monopoly,trival pursuit. We all have had great fun from them its been good to be off the pc for a while. Its good to have such good people around. Making changes to the Yahoo racing manager team I am manager of. The name now is Cloud9f1er's but it will soon be Green Team Racing (GTR). Made a new forum to use just for the team , this should help make it better for every one.
Well have a few things to do now , until next time.

Sunday, June 20, 2004

I have another job interview next week this time with Safeways supermarket. I am so happy its almost overwhelming I could almost cry with joy. This past week has been so fantastic! Next week will be even better.
Here is a thought I had the other day , imagine taking all the military worldwide and turning it to use for worldwide assistance for people who are struggling to survive. What a difference it would make to the quality of life to so many people. Nice thought , but would the powers that be allow it?
Look at our world. Look at what we are doing to this planet. Imagine being an alien watching the earth from afar for say the last 300 years , its like wow look at all the change. I,m sure it would seem like a virus spreading across the surface. Imagine if you will the earth as a living thing , in my mind you would have to say its sick/ill . Then what is the cause of this illness? Is it us? Maybe. One thing is certain we are not helping. So we are part of the earths problem.
I continue to change day by day , creating my new reality of love and happiness , being positive about the things I choose to experience. Thinking more and more about what I do , each time asking does this define who I am. So often I have stopped myself , thought before I have said or done something and realized it would not define who I am.
I see how rich my life has been with experiences. My deepest fears have gone , I relies now there really is no fear. I am happy , and nothing can change that reality , Nothing!
Thank you.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

This positive thinking is so cool. I see things so differently now , there really is nothing to fear. Life in this relative reality our physical body's inhabit is just part of the cycle , before we are conceived we have no physical form in this reality. So you could say we are nothing before the moment of conception from a physical point of view. So when our physical body dies it slowly reverts back to nothing leaving only a few traces that it was here at all. Why fear this? We enter with nothing but our physical body , and leave with nothing physical. So there is nothing to lose. I speak only in a physical sense of course the spirit and mind are two different matters.
"there is nothing to fear but fear its self" not right , there is no fear.
I hope this is all making some kind of sense.
Things to get on with no so will finish this a bit later , bye for now.

Monday, June 14, 2004

It's been a great weekend , good food , good company and lots of love. Life is great!
I,m not afraid any more. This is just so cool. I lay thinking last night how rich my life is with experiences . How after all the amazing stuff I have seen and done can I be unhappy , ever. I am going to experience so much more only now it is going to be from a positive view. I love who I am.
Not so long ago my thought would have been , "I want to live in Spain" now it is " I am going to live in Spain" I know I will. This reality I am going to create. I have so much love in my life and I never realized , its like WOW! How could I have missed it all this time.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to see , yes I,m talking to you Jane. I love you. When we met I loved you , only then I was expecting something in return. I still love you , only now I expect nothing. My love for you is now truly unconditional , I want nothing for my love . I have my love within me and I am going to do with it that which reflects/defines who I am and create a reality that I choose. You created an opportunity for me that has changed my life (the second time :) ) The first time I felt I owed you something thing , this time I feel I owe you nothing. You created it because you wanted to , not for me but for you. You changed your reality you created something , an opportunity. Look what I did to me with your creation , you changed your reality because something needed changing , you were positive.

Now for me to do some creating.

Friday, June 11, 2004

Another fantastic day. I am now living My life for Me. All my life I have walked round wanting this wanting that always feeling like I needed something else to make my life complete all the time it has always been complete , I need nothing else to be happy I am :). Thinking about my daughter has always been so painful , but now it fills Me with joy it makes me happy not sad. Why should I be unhappy about her , she looks happy and is in what appears to be a very happy and loving home what is there for me to be unhappy about. So I cant see her , so what. I still have a daughter whom I love nothing can change that , and that is why I,m happy , so very happy. Life for me will never be the same again. My entire out look on life has changed My thought process has changed , I am not who I was any more , I,m who I am.

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

37 years and now I begin to see the truth. I am creating a new reality one that defines who I am. I move forward more positive than I have ever been , not expecting anything.

Monday, June 07, 2004

Started reading a new book yesterday called "Conversations with god" .It's got me thinking already , making a lot of sense so far.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

I wonder If any one actually reads this?

Why do we fear?

Saturday, June 05, 2004

I LOVE YOU JANE WITH ALL MY HEART , FOREVER.

Thursday, June 03, 2004

Well been working since Tuesday , and I don't like the job one bit LOL. Its dirty,smelly,noise,boring and nobody there likes the job all they do is moan about how bad it is. But I guess I,ll just have to get on with it. All this time looking and wanting a job and I land one of the worst job's I have ever done. Suppose beggars can't be choosers as the saying goes.